SHAKEN & STIRRED – 50 SHADES
Part 7 of 7:
HMMMM: So again, I’m at a bit of loss at what the suspension thing is all about other than the fact that maybe when suspended on other occasions other things are done to the person hanging which is not so gentle……I did hear that people have been hung with hooks in their backs, which just makes me shudder at the thought of enduring and inflicting such pain.
After a very long night, we finally left at 4am in the morning and I fell into bed exhausted.
WHY PAIN: There were quite a few things that shook me and I’m still processing it all several days later. I asked one of the dominatrix if he had experienced the pain that he inflicted on his submissive. He said that he had tried everything he does but doesn’t like pain. I was curious if he got sexually turned on by it and was surprised that his response was “he’s not really into the pain and he doesn’t really enjoy that part of it that much, however it’s what his submissive wants, so it’s his way of pleasuring her”. He’s more into the nurturing and cuddling and after care, that’s the part he enjoys most. However my observations is that it’s also got a bit to do with being in control and to the point perhaps even being worshiped by the submissive.
I still can’t understand and I guess I never will understand what has led a person through their journey of life to be ok to receiving such pain and interpretating it as love and for another person to interpret loving someone by causing and inflicting pain.
I didn’t ask questions about their upbringings to see if there is any relevance as to why they are involved in this scene. I really didn’t have the energy to dig any deeper. At the end of the day however, we form our beliefs on an unconscious level from the ages of 3 to 4. Quite often on an unconscious level our beliefs and our behaviours are sabotaged or collapsed together. Sometimes our behaviours and beliefs are not serving us in the highest possible light for our highest good. Neuro Linguistic Programming (NLP) is a powerful tool for making changes and reframes on an unconscious level.
LOVE & LIGHT: It’s such a dark and twisted world and it is in total contradiction to how I live my life. My world as I already stated at the beginning of this piece is about loving, gentle, nurturing, soft energy full of respect and full of light. It’s about giving and receiving pleasure and love through touch, connection, love, energy and presence. I can only ever see this way of living as being in the dark, being in the shadow and being in a dark energetic space. Not a place I will ever understand.
At the end of the day, I really couldn’t handle the fact that people were ok and comfortable to be violent towards someone they loved and that the receivers were happiest when being whipped or caned and wore their bruises with pride…..it left me feeling raw and vulnerable and I could not wait to get back home and be held with gentle love and gentle energy by beautiful friends with beautiful loving hearts.
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